merry christmas, happy new year

Hello my muses, 

I hope everyone had a Christmas full of love and that your holidays are going well! This will probably be the last post of the year which is crazy to say. Honestly, each year goes by faster and faster and I know next year will fly by especially because it's my last year of high school. I'm cramming in all my homework this month which hasn't gone all that well. But hey, I've completed like half my work and I still got time... I try not to think about school too much, and the dread that comes with it, it stresses me out. 

My holidays have been pretty lackluster so far, but I love staying at home and binging all my favourite shows so I'm not complaining. Though, I've got quite a lot of things planned for January which I'm very excited for. One of my favourite things my family did this month was have a water gun fight. I didn't expect to get absolutely drenched by the end of it and it turned out to be pretty cold. But the sun was shining on us and we dried up quite quickly. I also made cookies the other day. I took a lot of shortcuts cuz we either didn't have the ingredients or I just got lazy so I was very worried that they would turn out disgusting. Maybe I jinxed it because they actually tasted pretty good. 

To celebrate the end of the year, I'm going to list the things I hope to leave behind in 2024 because this year was a bit of a shitshow.

1. shocking grades at school. yeah this year was my academic downfall, whoops

2. naps that last for 3+ hours

3. my tummy aches that hurt so bad I feel like I'm dying

4. putting down books after the first chapter. cmon girl give that book a fighting chance

5. getting way too emotionally attached to fictional characters

6. not loving myself and not loving life

7. procrastinating like crazy

8. getting pooped on by a bird. literally so disgusting what the hell. and it happened at school too.

To be fair, it wasn't alllll bad. I got to experience a lot of things that I'm grateful for and found lots of new music, books and shows/movies I now love. I guess it's easy to slip into a mindset that focuses on all the negative things in life and that's something I hope to improve on next year. Okay while we are here, I'm going to list all the things I hope to do next year in 2025.

1. fully living in the moment and savouring every interaction or memory I make

2. not being bad a school yikes

3. being better at expressing how I feel, like gratitude or love or even the more negative stuff

4. loving myself and loving life

Okay I can't think of anything else. Goodbye 2024, you will (not) be missed !

Thanks to everyone who's read my musings on this blog, y'all are real ones💗 

See you in the new year!

- Jessica