jessica's jocoserious musings

 Hello my muses,  Today, I would like to introduce a new character to my blog - Ross Lynch dupe. He's somewhat of a crush of mine................ and I guess this post will be dedicated to him. My friends and I have assigned this nickname for him for obvious reasons, he lowkey looks like Ross Lynch. Oh and by the way they judge me heavily for my taste in men. Now, there's not much I can say that won't reveal his identity but I'll see what I can do. Sometimes when I am feeling especially delusional, I tell myself that the eye contact we make is because he wants me. I sound insane and I probably am. Anyway... I love myself a CHALANT man. Someone who is funny and goofy and does nawt take life too seriously and shows a lot of care for everything. My rage increases the tiniest bit when I see someone who is being nonchalant and ruins the vibes. Though I love my girl V, she's so nonchalant but she's so cool about it and is my greatest inspiration because she is insanel...

 Hello my muses, I'm sitting here with all my past student ID cards and studying my face, how it changed so much but so little over the years. Though, it baffles me how this little twig was me 5 years ago, how she went through her first year of high school and how she has survived ever since. I don't think I was made for this but here I am. Anyway, it's safe to say that my year 12 photo is by far the best one (thank you universe). I probably banked in all the luck I saved from the previous years because those photos are really something. Okay I'm staring at my face too much I don't even know what I look like anymore.  Over the past few weeks, but lets be honest it started way before, everyone's been asking about my future; where I want to go, what I want to do. It's really stressful not gonna lie, because I have no idea. But I can't just say that, so over the past week I've been really looking into different universities and courses (okay like one un...

 Hello my muses, It's the end of this insanely busy week meaning I can now update you on how everything went. The beginning of this week felt like such a long time ago but we had our yr12 cohort photo on Tuesday. Even though it was a really hot day, we had to wear our jackets and we were all cramped into the tiny rows. They did in fact take the photos in sections and I was put in the second row of the first section (so I'm tall-ish !). Also, they updated our profile pictures from our old school photos to our new ones, so even though we haven't gotten the physical photos back we found out what our individual photos looked like. I was really scared it would look bad, especially because this year's photo is so important but I was pleasantly surprised when I saw a pretty decent school photo. My hair was a bit poofy and kinda ugly but that's okay because I thought it would be way worse.  The next day, we found out the cast to our school production! It was actually a half...

 Hello my muses, Very short life update because... drumroll pls... I drove for the first time today!! Okay don't judge, I know I put this off for a really long time but hey I finally started. It was less scary than I imagined though it definitely feels foreign to me. Like what do you mean the car just keeps moving when it's on?! I was so tense while driving that my muscles were sore. Literally clenched everything I could as if that would prevent any crashes. Well maybe it did because I didn't crash into anything!! I'm terrified of the accelerator pedal, I like my speed without it thank you very much (but guys my top speed of the day was 20km/hr and it felt very very fast). The real deal will be when I start driving on the roads... now THAT is a terrifying thought.  Anyway, I wanted to document this here because I want to be able to look back on my blog and remember all the little moments from this time of my life. Honestly even reading the posts from last year makes me ...

 Hello my muses, Can you believe it's already March?! What is time!!  This upcoming week is a busy one for us so this post will outline everything that is lined up. We've got the second round of school photos which is the group photo for yr12s. It's where our whole cohort will be in one picture but apparently they shoot two photos and edit it together. That makes more sense but I really did think they would shoot it all in one frame. But then the back people would be like 20m in the air lol. What are the odds that I'm in the front row this year... I feel like I'm always in the front but last year I was actually in the second row!! Does this mean I'm tall?!  The cast is also being announced for our school production next week. I'm kinda nervous because it could go in many different ways. After the initial auditions, I got a callback for young/teen Fiona which was surprising because how am I meant to pull off a child when, as I mentioned before, I am so tall!!...