oh how i hate studying

 Hello my muses, 

I am here for my monthly blog post! Life has been...........interesting recently, but honestly this whole year has been very interesting indeed. I don't know why, but the universe decided to give me every canon event ALL AT ONCE. 

Life after production ended was so miserable. I miss it so bad 😭but I will be forever grateful for the experience. It was extra miserable as I had so many tests coming out of production all the way til the end of the term. But in all honesty, integrating back into school life was easier than I expected. I kept on top of my coursework relatively well and wasn't too burnt out. 

Okay so I'm not gonna lie, the rest of term three was a bit unmemorable. We just had classes, tried to lock in, and yeah. Though, the last week of school felt oddly bittersweet. We still have one more term but its really short for us (two weeks) so we had a countdown in the senior study centre already. And the weather started to warm up so the end of term vibes were stronggg. On the Tuesday, we had our final community focus day with the theme of 'blast to the past' where my friends and I dressed up in the style of the 2000s. I loved the dress up days throughout the year because it was so sweet seeing everyone's costumes and all that. Oh and on the last day of school, we got our end of year celebratory t-shirts which are so cute!! It's actually really hitting me now that we are almost done with high school. Next term is going to be much more emotional but I'm excited for all our celebrations coming up. 

Currently, we are in week two of the school holidays, and last week we had our practice exams...! I had one exam every day (which has its pros and cons) and they went... as expected. I did not revise for chemistry and it showed; I think I made up the content for at least half the exam. Thank god it was a practice!! Maths was alrightttt but I didn't really have time to finish. English went so much better than I expected but I also did not have time to finish my essay. Accounting was fine but it was sooo long. It also ended at 5pm so I was literally yawning the whole time. The real exam is also around the same time so I am a little bit scared for that. Honestly, the practice exam period was kinda fun because we were all at school by ourselves just hanging out and bonding over our shared trauma that is vce. It also made me feel more locked in and I acutally consistently did practice exams in my own time. This week, however, I am back to being locked out!!! I am actaully petrified for the the real exams. I want to do well but I don't have the motivation in me to try. I think I psych myself out and feel more anxiety rather than stress about it all at the moment. You know, I've had MULTIPLE dreams about exams, atar, etc. Actually, I'd call them nightmares. I can not wait for this period to be over and I can be FREEEE. This summer is gonna be the best summer of my life. 

Okay that's it from me! I think next term I will try to do more blog posts to document the celebrations. Let's see if I have the time or energy.

Thanks for reading,

- Jessica